12:44 a.m. - Tuesday, Mar. 06, 2007
it was to sad a moment to try to contemplate
so eric wrote me back saying, not only can i come, my dogs can stay in the car while i'm there.
and while i want to write him back saying well if they are going to stay in the car, so am i, and if i'm staying in the car, i don't really see any reason for to stop off there in vegas...
but i won't. or at least i haven't yet.
but still, that's one of the things, i don't go anywhere without my dogs. and eric knows that. i mean i didn't go up to his cabin, how many times because he said i couldn't bring my dogs? and the times i did go, it was never for even a day total, cause i had to get home to my dogs. untill that is, one of his parnets dogs died (rip ember) and he said sure bring you're dogs up, and then it was like oh you're leaving? wow that sucks, i guess i should go too, but do i have to? and the thing is, my dogs got along fine with ember when she was still alive.
i mean "yeah, they can stay in the car" i can see for a couple of hours, say while we are eating or something, but for the entire time? 'well it was nice being you're friend, hopefully we'll have better luck in the next life, till then'...
oh well. I'll probably still stop by there, it isn't exactly on the way, but then again, it's not exactly out of the way, since i'm planning on going out to san fran, then driveing up the pch till i get to portland and then heading home...
i'm not sure what i'm going for, just to make sure i'm not makeing a bad choice by my desion to move east. but i can't stand it here anymore. even boulder has changed, i mean i used to talk about it being a suburb of denver, cause everyone used to comute to denver, no people are actually going to boulder to shop in it's many strip malls and gaint box stores... i mean what the hell, it's about the same tax, maybe less, and in boulder it's going towards good schools for the kids and trails for the residents. whereas, at least here in broomfield westminster it's being wasted on to many cops not paying attention...
NP: casiotone for the painfully alone, airport samba
i wish that there was something i could do or say, to make it so you didn't have to go away, i wish you would look at me, but i don't want to see you cry, i wish you would turn around, you never even said good bye
