1:51 a.m. - Saturday, Feb. 24, 2007
i thought i bored me, but i learned to think like you do,
ok, so i've been thinking about this for some time,
but i still don't have a clue.
why is it i'm clueless when it comes to girls?
I mean from my frist kiss way back when i was fourteen up until now, i have no idea what to do when i like someone.
no clue at all.
I mean when erica kissed me, i didn't have any clue what was going on, how much farther i could have taken it or anything else, that's not a problem, i was fourteen, that's ok when you are fourteen, but now, i don't even have a clue when someone likes me, that's much more of a problem seeing as how i'm now 27 1/2.
I mean somewhere i should have gotten smarter about it, and i have a little, but only after the fact. i'm still clueless when it's happening.
today it was some girl in a ford exploder at the gas station, i didn't get the chance to tell her there was something wrong with her, as i didn't get to talk to her, she was filling up her tank as i was, i finished and was getting in my car to go as she said something, i stopped and asked what it was she has said... something about how long it was taking to fill up her tank, but in a sexy sort of way... she wasn't all that hot, but certianly far from ugly, and i just drove away. never mind that it wasn't the best of neighborhoods and i was ina pretty hot car, my lexus after i had just washed it, with the rims all sparklely and such. (there is an ok pic on myspace.com/craymor, but far from a good one) but i didn't get around to telling her what the hell is wrong with you? you drive a expolder, a vehicle which should have been recalled way more than the pinto, the pinto only blew up when someone rearended you, you're car can blow up just driveing down the road. I mean a vehicle which has tire problems, which were wrongly blamed on the tire, when in reality there is something wrong with the car, if it was tire problems then all of them would equally blow up, not just the drivers side rear. but i didn't say anything expect mine only takes 18 gallons, and well it'll be over soon enough.
if only it would.
but anyway, it's nothing new. just a couple of days ago the girl checking me out at the supermarket was comenting on some movie her and her girl frind where going to see, i hadn't heard of it, typical responce from me, i really hadn't, seeing as how i don't have tv, and she says she needs a date to go with her girlfriend, and i say 37.98, ok, and sign the recept and go on my way, as i'm loading the car, it hits me. WTF?
i mean that really WTF is wrong with me?
I mean a hot girl, not like porn star hot, more like the girl who lives next door hot, not in the movies but in reality, and certainly hotter than the last couple of girls i've gone out with, is asking me out, and i say how much? ok.
and the thing is it wouldn't bother me all that much, but it happens all the time,
for instance, round about xmas, the girl checking me out at the very same king suppers this time the girl is hot like a porn star, an amuter porn star, but still pretty damm hot, and shes saying she doesn't have anything to do on new years, and she really wished she had something to do...
I'm wondering what it will take for me to acualally go out and get a girl? will she have to hit me over the head? will that even be enough?
The few girls i have been with have all basically asked me out, not erica, i asked her out, but beyond that, pretty much all of them, from erica, who asked if i was still awake, to katie, who i happened to mention that i had an extra ticket to a concert, and she demanded to go along, to cat, "why haven't you tried to kiss me?" followed by my lazy attempt at an explination and her kissing me... to the most recent shnae or how ever you spell her name, telling me she was going to the great amercian beer fest, and i was to come along...
well here's to being hit over the head. or what ever it takes.
NP: built to spill, big dipper
bottoms up in this time, won't you let me be, bottled up in this time, won't you resecue me? though it up in this time, it's all i can see, should have been here last night and heard what the big dipper said to me
