1:59 a.m. - Wednesday, Feb. 21, 2007
haven't seen you around in a while, hey
god i want out.
I could understand it last month, there was snow everywhere, in addition to being the most or second most deperssing month of the year, there was snow, at least a foot and a half of it all month, there was snow in our street packed down to ice at least six inches thick all month. (we had two months straight of snow, not a record:( but what the hell, the mesure it out near kansas. We've still got a foot on the south side of the steet, the northside has a couple of spots with inches...
but now, aside from the melting snow everywhere, it makes walking about in it a muddy mess, nearly impossible to ride a bike throuh the mudd. it was a really nice day today, it probably hit sixty, the sun was out..
and what did i do? i slept the clock around and then some 8:46pm till 10:07 am. and once i got myself up, a depressed myself even more by surfing the web, note to self, you don't have any money just yet, so no shoping. when i finally got around to makeing my self some lunch it was really good, but i just ate it, i didn't care. it could have been oatmeal and i wouldn't have cared. i did finaly drag myself out into the mud with my dogs, walked them ~six k, and when i got back i was ready to go to the gym, i mean i was planing on going, and i ust didn't get around to it. when i finally got around to going i managed 400cal on the bike and then went home.
I'm not sure what it is that's bugging me.
i'm thinking it might be my living situation,
it was ok living here with my parents when i worked, they were only around on the weekends, the rest of the time i had the place to myself. but now, even when i was coming home from the gym, i took the really long way home, probably fifteen miles the wrong way and then back, they were still up at eleven. they are always here. and that's been bothering me a bit.
plus the weather inspite of how nice it's been today, and pretty much all week, been really getting to me. i want to move somewhere it never snows. i never want to see another snow flake in my life.
np:modest mouse: postive negative
I didn't go to work for a month, i didn't leave my bed for eight days striaght, i haven't hung out with anyone, if i did i'd have nothing to say, i didn't feel angry or depressed, i didn't feel anything at all, i didn't want to go to bed, and i didn't want to stay awake, when you're living you're life well, thats a chance you take
