12:08 a.m. - Wednesday, Dec. 06, 2006
they want you to decide, evetually it happens
God i can't imagine how this must look to someone not living it, but it appears that two classes plus working at my incribly shity job is a little to much for me.
i mean my job, on a bucy day, involves about 50% work, on a more normal day, it involves maybe 25% work, and on a slow day i work just 10% of the time i'm there, the rest of the time i have to do whatever i want.
and the thing of it is, i can't seem to get myself to want to study or do homework, between four and seven hours off each day (when i have to be there, but i don't have anthing to do), and i can't bring myself to do homework, or even read the book.
in my off hours, when i'm not suppose to be at work or class, i'm more than happy to do the homework or open the book, but the thing of it is, i don't really have all that many off hours. and what i do have is filled up with other stuff, for instance tomarrow i set my alarm early so i would havew a chance to shower, seeing as how i haven't had time to do it yet this week, and i smell/look pretty gross (whatever happened to the hair that though i pretty much always showered, if i skipped a day everyone noticed and commented on how good it looks?)...
but tomarrow i want to look my best, there is this really hot girl in my macro eccon class, she's not the brightest bulb, but she's hot and she seems to like me (not to mention that she's really hot, pretty conventionally hot {blonde hair, blue eyes, skinny, petie...), but hey, she's still hot), and tomarrow is the last chance i'll get to not ask her out, and i'd like to think my own social skill failings are a result of something else, i want to know that i blew this chance, all me...
Remeber this is a guy who barily has time to read the personals, much less responed to them. i was reading the craigslist ones today,and there were a couple that seemed like pretty cool girls, but then i had to go to work and...
things will get better in a week and two days, and they will get a whole lot better in another month and a half... soon to get much harder though, i can't imageine how i could live on a couple of hundred bucks a month, and yet i'll soon be having to... but then again, back when i didn't have as much stuff, i had a whole lot more fun...
then again i had a lot more fun when i didn't sign up for a 8:30 class too, i think that's really the probem, haveing to get up so early when i can't go to bed earily.
but mostly i can't wait to quit my job.
np: the shins - spilt needles
